I had a dream. It was sophisticated. I was overwhelmed and content by the delightfulness of it but as soon as I woke up its gone.
I don't like how things work out lately. It's just not so right. I wish to tell it but theres something stopping me to put my hands on it. I don't know why. I kept advicing people to go for it but actually I myself aren't any better. I hope I could exchange life with my dream. The life inside there is much more what I wish I had, but its always like this isn't it? Life's unfair and such. I wanted to think it is, I wanted to say if it means fair if life's unfair.
sigh...
If there's a time that I work so hard to get something, just a notice, it's this time. First it was just there, as I wanted to approach it, get closer to it, it was there, and when I wanted to chase the time that belongs to it, it became further and further...
I was always aware of things, careful and work harders trying to not make it turn away, in results I lost my way, and it 's just geting further and further.
now I'm lost.
I'm tired of faking, I wanted to head back where before I started.
But I can't. I asked myself why,
-and I never answered...
